Friday, 6 May 2016

Lady Who Had 4 Abortions Laments As Ex Welcomes Baby Boy

...TGNB Abortion Series 8!

The worst thing that can happen to any woman is to believe that having sex with a man will make him love her. It's a stupid delusion that can only cause you heartbreaks and painful regrets.
Hello Sarah, my heart is heavy with rues and I don't know what to do. I feel like praying but I can't seem to find my voice. I've sinned against God and against humanity, and now, I can't find peace with myself. I cringe whenever I think of all the things i've done.

I had four abortions within three years, and the mere thought of it makes me sick.

I have to admit, I wasn't this bothered about it until I recently learned that my ex has fathered a son with his new girlfriend.

Timothy and I met at a friend's party in 2010. We had a dance, got talking and one thing lead to another and we began dating.

I was stupefied, fret, when I learned I was pregnant for the first time. It happened (we had unprotected sex) in the wake of my menstruation, barely four months into our relationship.

When I told him I was pregnant with his child, he was calm, caring and showed so much concern. He asked me what I wanted and assured me I was not alone.

I told him I don't know if I wanted to keep or terminate the pregnancy. And that was like what he needed to hear to convinced me to have an abortion. And so we did.

We went to a nearby clinic that specializes in abortion. We went there as early as 8:am, and met over 20 girls who were there for the same reason.

We got a card and went in to see a doctor, who checked and confirmed that I was truly pregnant and told us to pay N8,000 for the abortion. Timothy negotiated with him and we ended up paying N6,000 or so (I can't remember the exact amount).

After paying the money to a cashier outside the doctor's office, we went to a large waiting room filled with girls and women (all there for the same reason as us) and the people that accompanied them.

We found an empty seat at a corner of the room, sat down and waited patiently for our turn. During this time my heart was racing very fast. I was norm, stupefied and dead scared. I kept praying to God for His mercy.

Timothy was very supportive. He told me nothing would go wrong, that the doctors were professionals who have been doing it for years.

When it was my turn, I was motioned into a lab where a doctor and a nurse was waiting for the next in line.

They had me striped down, laid down with my legs hanged apart as the doc operated on me. I screamed, flinched, whined, cried and nearly passed out. Tell you the truth, it's the most painful thing I've ever experienced. Even more painful than a whiplash.

But in a twinkle of an eye it was over and done with. And within a few hours it was as if I didn't do any thing.

Walking out of that hospital I told myself I would never go through this again. I would never have unprotected sex until I am ready to mother a child. Not with Timothy, not with any man!

But keeping those words was such a big ask. I not only had unprotected sex with Timothy but I also went back to that hospital, went through the same painful process of having an abortion; three more times.

No need to be coy, Timothy love sex as much as I do. He likes skin-to-skin and because he was such a flirt I thought indulging him would keep him under my wraps. I was wrong. Very wrong. It caused me four painful abortions and I have no one else to blame but me.

I have to admit, I really loved him. He was such a great lover. Cute, charming, romantic, smooth talker and knows just how to keep a woman happy. But that would be such a bad alibi for all the abortions I foolishly committed.

Timothy got two other girls pregnant during our relationship. One of them, he introduced to me as his distant cousin. Unknown to me he was bedding her real good. In fact, I soon learned he was a serial cheat and a pathetic liar.

I know it's a fait accompli and I am not the type to cry over a spilled milk but I wish things were different. I really wish I didn't had any of those abortions. I wish I talked to more people about it. I wish I kept even one of them. It would have made a big difference.

The news of Timothy having a son has taken a torn on me. I know it will happen for me one day (God being so merciful), but I can't help but have a complex over it. The chicken has come home to roast and my past is really haunting me.

I will appreciate any advice on how I can lift this burden off my heart. Please don't play the judge on me. No one is perfect. I made terrible mistakes in the past but I learned from them. Besides, the best of us have done something that we aren't so proud of, this is mine.

To all the ladies reading this; please, please don't fall victim to deceit and turn a deaf ear to the truth. Abortion can only hunt one person...and that person is you!!!

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